I know as a single mother, life can be hard. Bills are hard to keep up on living paycheck to paycheck. our kids don't listen and act like teenage girls. Then your boss shows you no respect no matter what you do while you're at work, it kinda drags you down a bit. I've been looking for a new job but it's hard because I only work three days a week and make $13 an hour.
Another horrible moment in my life happened April 24th, 2016. My best friend was found after he had hung himself. When I found out the following morning, my entire world changed. He was my best friend. He was always the one I would go to when I felt down and needed someone, a shoulder. It has been almost 2 months since I lost him. He was basically my everything. I loved him. We actually made plans to get married when he turned 30, three years from now. I wouldn't necessarily say he was the "love of my life", but I had way too much love for him. And now he's gone.
I'm not going to get into the whole "suicide is bad" or anything like that, but if any of you who read this feel like you want to end your life because the struggles you go through are too much, I'm sorry you feel that way, but I just want you to think about all of the people in your life, every single person you have ever met if even it was two times. You could have made a huge difference in their life. Please find help of some sort before leaving so many people to feel the same way you felt when you decided to take your life. It's hard for me to go through everyday knowing he will never be here to hug me when I need it or just to talk about stupid things like we always did.
I am going to end this post right here.
Tuesday, June 14, 2016
Tuesday, May 31, 2016
Introduction Time!
Hey There!
I'm not sure how many people will be bored enough to read the random things I am about to post, but.. I could care less if I am just writing to myself. Consider this an online diary about my life.
I for some reason decided this would be a great idea, but as soon as I started writing, I lost every bit of thought that originally ran through my head. I guess I can start with a little bit about myself, my family and how stressful life can be. Here goes nothing.
My name is Brittany, I am 24 years of age, 25 in July. I am a single mother of twin boys, they are my life now. I also have two cats and two dogs. The cats kinda do their own thing and the dogs are basically annoying as all hell. Thor, my year old pit bull, is soon becoming an emotional support animal for my anxiety and depression. Quinn, named after Harley Quinn - yes, my children are intrigued with the Avengers and the Justice League, among other things - is a puppy, and man oh man, I am not a puppy person. She is a wild one with a thick skull and full of stubbornness, She is a mix between Rhodesian Ridgeback and Catahoula Cur.
My children, a handful on their own, will be four in August. Jacob and Jordin. When I was 20, I still had it in my head that I was never going to have kids, I didn't like them. They were gross and naughty and a pain in the ass, well after having two of them at the same time, I've decided I was completely right about everything I previously stated. Lol. But, fortunately for hem, I love them. They are currently on a mini vacation without me down to Detroit Michigan, visiting the zoo and Lego-land. While I sit at my friend's house waiting my long 12 hour shift tomorrow night.
I hate my job. It's boring, I work third shift so it's tiring. The only plus side, I make $13 and hour and only work three days a week. I clean the Amway Building in Ada Michigan. It's a pretty far drive for someone who can barely keep her head above water when it comes to bills. I've actually vacated my dumpy trailer park mobile home due to not being able to afford the electricity bill. I say dumpy because I paid $500 for it and like they say, you get what you paid for. But, it's livable, for now.
So I guess, for my first post, I said more than I planned.. I was also hoping to make some people laugh, but I don't see where that comes in. I suppose I will go back to being bored off my mind. So long for now...
I'm not sure how many people will be bored enough to read the random things I am about to post, but.. I could care less if I am just writing to myself. Consider this an online diary about my life.
I for some reason decided this would be a great idea, but as soon as I started writing, I lost every bit of thought that originally ran through my head. I guess I can start with a little bit about myself, my family and how stressful life can be. Here goes nothing.
My name is Brittany, I am 24 years of age, 25 in July. I am a single mother of twin boys, they are my life now. I also have two cats and two dogs. The cats kinda do their own thing and the dogs are basically annoying as all hell. Thor, my year old pit bull, is soon becoming an emotional support animal for my anxiety and depression. Quinn, named after Harley Quinn - yes, my children are intrigued with the Avengers and the Justice League, among other things - is a puppy, and man oh man, I am not a puppy person. She is a wild one with a thick skull and full of stubbornness, She is a mix between Rhodesian Ridgeback and Catahoula Cur.
My children, a handful on their own, will be four in August. Jacob and Jordin. When I was 20, I still had it in my head that I was never going to have kids, I didn't like them. They were gross and naughty and a pain in the ass, well after having two of them at the same time, I've decided I was completely right about everything I previously stated. Lol. But, fortunately for hem, I love them. They are currently on a mini vacation without me down to Detroit Michigan, visiting the zoo and Lego-land. While I sit at my friend's house waiting my long 12 hour shift tomorrow night.
I hate my job. It's boring, I work third shift so it's tiring. The only plus side, I make $13 and hour and only work three days a week. I clean the Amway Building in Ada Michigan. It's a pretty far drive for someone who can barely keep her head above water when it comes to bills. I've actually vacated my dumpy trailer park mobile home due to not being able to afford the electricity bill. I say dumpy because I paid $500 for it and like they say, you get what you paid for. But, it's livable, for now.
So I guess, for my first post, I said more than I planned.. I was also hoping to make some people laugh, but I don't see where that comes in. I suppose I will go back to being bored off my mind. So long for now...
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